I hit 200 lbs recently and realized I need to do something about it. I do good for a couple days, or during the daytime, but then binge at night. I am trying so hard to break myself out of it. I don’t know why it is so difficult this time around. It is like I am a different person at night and just shovel so much junk food into my face. I don’t care one bit about how heavy I am at night time. I just want to indulge. And then in the morning I immediately regret it and tell myself I’ll do better… only to do it all over again at night.
I lost weight SO easily last year. I was eating healthy, good, whole food and I was staying within my calorie limit without any trouble at all. I lost at least 120 lbs (possibly more as I did not weight myself when I was my heaviest).
In January last year I was 118 lbs. now I am 200 lbs. It is insane how quickly I put on this weight. It feels so awful to have to go back to all my old huge clothes… or to have to buy new ones all together. Feeling my clothes become tighter and tighter on my body. I feel awful. I have no energy. I feel so sluggish and bloated.
I was incredibly active last year as well. I have become more and more sedentary over the months, especially since I started college several months ago. There have been stretches of weeks upon weeks where I did not even go for a short walk at all, let alone a long one.
I decided I am going to force myself to walk at least half an hour every day. I am going to get on the trails again. I am going to start hiking again. I can barely get up a short flight of stairs without losing my breath and my legs aching. I need to change things.
So, I am going to try a new method of posting my meals for accountability. I want to be proud of what I am putting in my body. I want to feel good about myself.
Perhaps I will start posting my hikes as well in the hiking subs.
Anyways, sorry to ramble. I feel like I just need to vent.
This is today’s lunch. Massive bowl of vanilla Greek yogourt loaded with mango, blueberries, granola, and roasted pumpkin seeds! Rang in at 585 calories and 29g protein. I know this is probably a little higher than what some of y’all prefer to have for lunch but I find that I feel much much better and more satiated if I have a couple larger meals a day, or even just one huuuuuge one, rather than several smaller ones. If I feel peckish I just have a bowl of berries.
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Just here to say you’re not alone. Depression weight gain is the WORST. I’m restarting my journey too.
I reached my lowest weight (145lbs) and gained 25 pounds in two months bc I was extremelyyyyy depressed. I felt this so hard. It’s a journey and we’re learning and adjusting and moving forward
Good on you for trying.
Something to think about – add a zero to the amount of protein in a food, and that’s basically how many calories it should have maximum. I.e. 29g of protein should be the goal in a food that’s under 300kcal.
So 29g of protein for 585 calories won’t be doing for you what you hope. And granola is a major sugar bomb (as much as I love it). In this meal, I’d be aiming for less granola and more low cal protein like a protein powder mixed in the yoghurt!
So often those first steps back are the hardest. Way to go!
Day one or one day 💪🏼 you got this. First few weeks are the hardest but once the weight is dropping and you get a bit adjusted to eating less it gets easier
you’ve got this 💖 💖
Starting anew is already a win. You got this.
I’m proud of you for starting again. Depression sucks. Small consistent habits with this race. You can do it. YOU DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD!