Hey, I’m posting my breakfast today, but honestly I’m here because I really need help and this subreddit already has helped me A TON. For about a year now I’ve been struggling with binge eating (emotional). It started during a really stressful year, and I guess food became the way I coped. I’ve already gained about 8 kg. I’m a small-framed, young girl and I feel gross with this excessive fat, can’t wear what i want, i feel super embarrassed to even leave the house (i’m somewhere between healthy weight and beginning overweight, i have a lot of bf%)
Yesterday I ate around 8,000 calories. I’m not exaggerating. I stuck to a 1200 kcal diet for three days (even though during those days I was still eating things like whole Halo Top pints before sleeping and i was feeling relief that i can somehow binge (idk if that works and i can do that still), and then everything fell apart again. It’s like I have to eat it, like it gives me this moment of relief. And it does, but afterwards I feel terrible physically and mentally.
Yesterday it started with a “fit pizza” I made at 8 am. I wanted to eat a half for breakfast and another half for dinner. It was around 800 calories. but i ate my portion, then other one, then I ate a whole Halo Top tub, around 300 calories, and told myself that’s all I’d eat for the day, it was already 1200 kcal. at 8 am. But then I had a horrible day at work and completely spiraled. I ate an entire chocolate bar, ordered McDonald’s (which I don’t even like…), and started eating things I don’t even enjoy just to fill myself up. A lot of garbage food. Just to eat. My problem is when i’m at work I go to the shop and buy snacks, when i’m depressed or stressed. Maybe u have some tips on that too, should I don’t take money with myself?
I think about food constantly. All the time. None of the diets work for me, especially low-calorie ones, after 2–3 days I break. I really want to lose weight and feel good in my body again, but I feel like I have zero willpower. I also don’t have money for therapy, so I’m trying to figure things out on my own, but I honestly don’t know how to overcome this binge eating
Has anyone gone through something similar? What helped you? How do you even start dealing with binge eating when the thoughts and urges are so strong?
by OldBlackberry6845